- Started by Anon on Apr 12, 2022
I have a 10 month old daughter and over the last 3 months I have completely hit rock bottom.. I dont like the person I have become. I get thoughts that I should run away and end all of these feelings. Ive no confidence anymore. I dont want or ever feel like being intimate with my partner since having my daughter. I cant tell anyone because I dont want them to think im being dramatic. My partner is so loving I know he doesnt deserve this. I hide these feelings everyday from everyone it is exhausting. I did ring GP but cannot be seen for a week as they are busy. I dont know how I will get over feeling so broken and lost. Ive thought about going to A&E before I crack..
- Started by Anon on Sep 05, 2019
Hi everyone, I am a mam of 2 children (girl 8 and baby boy 7 months). I was diagnosed with PND when my son was 3 months and was referred to counselling and put on tablets. I was never a person to shy away from my feelings but i just put everything down to the baby blues as i did not suffer with PND with my first child. I had brought my baby in for his first lot of injections and the nurse noticed straight away there was something wrong with me. she was very kind and told me to look for help and to come back if i wanted to speak to someone. it shocked me that a practical stranger had noticed it in me but my family hadn't. the following week was a check up with the health nurse and she told me that I had PND after a quick questionnaire and asked me to go to my GP as she would be speaking to him about it. It took me a month to get myself together and realise i couldn't just ride this wave anymore, i needed to get help for the sake of my family and most importantly myself.
While the tablets have definitely put in better form from day to day, i still have good days and bad days. Counselling is wrapping up at the moment, only 1 more session left, and although I have learned a few bits about myself and given me food for thought I still feel horrifically low. My partner is doing the best he can but I just don't think he understands the extent of how much PND can effect you. I find i snap the head off him for no reason and don't have the energy to play with my daughter. And so on top of the PND comes the guilt, I feel guilty that I am not well, I feel guilty that I should be happy but for some reason I'm depressed. I am out sick from work as I was to return to work the beginning of July. The thoughts of work sets me into a panic. Which is unusual because i used to like my job, although it was stressful from time to time. I feel I cannot face work and leaving the kids and house all week. How would I get everything done and spend time with the kids and my partner without spiraling into a deeper depression? Has anyone ever felt like this and returned to work? How did it go?
Then there's guilt that the main financial responsibility is on my partners shoulders.
Please tell me I am not the only one who if after counselling and anti depressants (high dosage) and time of work still feels like crap? At this point I feel broken and won't be able to ever put the pieces back together.
- Started by Amy on Jun 23, 2018
Kinda nervous to post this but here it goes, I know I will be met with support and understanding from you all. I think I might have postnatal depression but I don’t know.
Lately I’ve been feeling really strange. My Mom is currently battling cancer and it all kicked off really abruptly with her being healthy enough and then one day ended up in ICU on a ventilator after her bowel ruptured. They then found a tumour and she now has a ileostomy bag and has lost her hair and so much weight. It’s been so quick and painful for me to watch as she is my best friend and we have no answer about how long she will live. My dad also suffers with depression and has dystonia so I have this sense of guilt when I go home to my house and leave them there. I’m all day every day thinking about my mom and just waiting for more bad news. I’m really struggling with it.
I recently started back at work and have been offered a promotion since I returned which is great but I just feel like I’m on autopilot, I don’t relate to any of the girls I work with and feel like they don’t like me every much. I just feel like I can’t be myself around them and I come off cold. It’s like I’m overthinking every situation working along side them and I’ve lost all social capability, which is very strange for me.
I don’t feel suicidal at all, like my daughter and husband are my life, I love them so much and they make me so happy but I feel like I’m having an out of body experience all the time. I feel like I can’t be affectionate to my husband as I don’t feel attractive since having my baby and I know it hurts him that I’m like this.
I’m eating crap too, just not filling my body with the fuel I need but I just feel so bloody miserable and lost!
I know I should go to my GP and get help in some way but I honestly can’t afford the €65 visit and I know she will suggest counseling but I can’t afford it. I also don’t want to go on medication. I’m just wondering will this feeling lift, will of get worse? I’m just scared I’m losing who I am and becoming a shell of my former self. Help!
- Started by Lara on May 17, 2022
I feel just pretty much like I do not exist and that I do not have my identity anymore. My 3 month old is bit skinny and has head position issues and that makes me sad and I believe I am a bad mum. I also moved to Ireland recently and lost my job so I conoletely depend on my husband financially. I feel nothing more but a housewife and not so good mother and dependent wife. Some how it looks like I am not competent for anything and I am completely a fake person, empty and hollow.
- Started by C on Feb 08, 2019
Hi, this has to be the hardest thing i have done. I had my baby boy 21 days ago and now on medication. I have support but my brain won't let me relax. All i want to do is run away.
- Started by Emah on Apr 15, 2016
Just wondering what support groups are available in Limerick area. Playgroups aren't ideal as by the time I get my toddler there she is tired and I'm just shadowing her from trying to go out door so doesn't give me chance to talk to other moms, feel so isolated!
- Started by Debbie on May 04, 2022
Due back to work in 4 months time and I am already worrying about it. Can anyone replace me, how am I going to be sure I pick the right person. I am all over the place, should I become a stay at home Mum?? If I didnt have the mortgage hanging over my head but really not a reality. Love love to hear from Mums that went through this..
- Started by Anonymous on Feb 01, 2022
Hi everyone I had my 2nd baby 12 weeks ago I’m constantly feeling scared to be alone don’t want to go anywere I don’t know what is wrong with me
- Started by Anonymous on Feb 02, 2022
I am a first time mum to a 17month baby boy.. I am 31 live at home with my mum and dad my boyfriend moved in before the pandemic and babys birth and we are still here.. I feel stressed here as I feel I am not doing things the way my mam would and sometimes it makes me so frustrated. She is good to us but feel she is getting distant sometimes.. I think I had some depression before my baby was born , it was manageable at that time I was able to go to the gym and have time and space for myself to recover from day to day stuff/work etc.. I was becoming more social isolating at that time also when I look back.. now since my baby was born the pandemic living with my parents still and first time living with my boyfriend I feel like I am so depressed I don't want too get up in the mornings I argue with my bf who did what etc I am paranoid my mam feels its too much us being at her house I am paranoid she is talking about us too other family members.. I am paranoid family think we are using then.. we are planning on moving out this year and have saved a house deposit. It was stressful as my bf worked with family and could not move jobs until recently so wasn't able to bring in much money I know my mam was trying to help with suggestions but was making my paranoid worse.. I cry most days now I'm always stressed iv had 3 new jobs since going bk to too work in Feb 21. I plan on going too my doctor to discuss this as it is affecting me my relationships, I have never received mental health help I don't know I'm how I'm feeling is pnd or just depression .. I'm I'm not feeling sad I have anxiety..
- Started by Audrey on Jan 19, 2022
I am a first time Mum to an 8 month boy. Being a Mum is something I've always wanted and my husband and I always wanted children.
I find I am struggling at the moment. My son has decided he doesn't like his car seat anymore and going anywhere in the car, unless necessary, causes untold stress. He will only nap in his buggy, when walking. Which is fine on the days that I feel like getting up and out but on wet days it can be difficult, especially when exhausted from the night before.
He usually sleeps well but at the moment he is waking at night and is very difficult to settle. It is upsetting for us all.
I feel extremely limited in where I can go and what I can do. Most days its just easier to stay at home and go for walks near the house. I find this is really getting me down.
I feel slightly rejected in that my son will settle for my husband but not for me.
I am wondering if anyone else feels like this or has any advice on any of the above.