- Started by Anonymous on Nov 21, 2017
My baby lost 13% weightloss in 5 days, i was trying to exclusively breast feed, she was then hospitalised. I keep thinking it was my fault, i didnt wake her enough to feed( she was a slwepy baby) or was i to tired i slept through the cries. its all such a mess in my head now. I keep remembering certain times when perhaps i didnt do the right thing. Im not sure if im tainting the truth in my head or not. I just keep thinking about it in my head & cry & cry at the thought i could have starved her. At hospital she did gain some weight they fed her through my expressed breast milk, but then used Formula as i couldn't express enough for demand. She did put on weight and would feed at the bottle. Im angry at myself as well for not knowing enough when she wouldn't feed at home. Why didn't i know i could express and why didnt i have a good breast pump. Why didn't i give her formula when she wasnt feeding - although these are all things i know i could do now i didn't know at the time nor did i think she would take a bottle if she didn't take the breast. I now know that not to be true. When we got home i still couldnt get her to latch so we stuck with the formula. A few days later we were back in hospital and found out she had an extreamly serious virus. When she got the correct medication she completly changed however by then my milk was drying up and as much as i tried it never fully returned. If the virus meant she wasnt feeding im not sure. either way i cant help to keep going over and over in my head if the reason she lost so much weight is my fault
- Started by Anonymous on Dec 17, 2017
anyone know of support groups in Louth
- Started by Anonymous on Jul 10, 2017
Hi, my baby is 8 months now and I just feel so bad I can't even explain it its just bad I feel bad and empty all the time. Everyone just calls me a moan and a crank but I just have the urge to rip clumps form my hair and smash my head against a wall ( I don't actually go through with it) I havnt told anyone how I'm feeling and nobody ever asks. If they did I know I'd break down in front of them. My partner has found me crying in the dark a few times but he just believes me when I say I just read a sad story and leaves me to it. I've no ill feelings towards my baby I love the bones off her so that's why I'm afraid to say out loud I have pnd incase it ever gets used against me ( not that it would it's just what I think) i would happily tell a doctor and take tablets but would the tablets turn me into a zombi? I don't want that but I don't want these feelings anymore :( I can't afford counselling
- Started by Babymomma on Feb 04, 2018
Hello ladies, I'm just here to have a rant I suppose! So I had my baby 12 weeks ago and my other half has a 5 year old son with his ex. Well I know how silly this is gonna sound but he got her flowers after she had his first son and I was promised I would get beautiful flowers too cos it's something that I kinda became slightly obsessed about. Anyway I had a great labour and I got my amazing beautiful baby boy...but no flowers! He explained he had no money which I understand given his job barely pays the bills but my argument is that he had my card and I obviously wouldn't have even noticed 20 quid gone for them. It's made me feel so worthless and completely not good enough compared, even though I know it's me he wants but I just can't shift it. He doesn't get how he made me feel like he had money to go out for dinner with his friend the night I had the baby. I don't really know what I'm looking for here but I can't get over how this has made me feel and I haven't cried for nearly 3 weeks and now I'm crying over this. He can't fix it now so how do we get passed it? With Valentine's coming up I know he's going to get me flowers that will just cause an argument. I'd love to tell him what he can do but I know I'll never ever forgive him.
- Started by Orla on Dec 12, 2015
Hi Orla just wanted to know did you recover from pnd as I have been going through it for 6 months and still not better
- Started by Suzanne on Nov 25, 2014
Hi, I have pnd and just been diagnosed now. my baby is now 11months old. i have just started my medication and on 10mg escitalopram. i feel very muggy and want to start exercise to lift me i am afraid though i might get too dizzy or the impact this might have if i start the exercise. Can you give me advice?
- Started by elaine on Sep 20, 2016
Hi Elanine there is a support group in Kerry it is based in Listowel and they run Support Groups their no 086 7872107.
You can also ring PND Irl 021 4922083 they run support groups, coffee mornings, and have a help line, they also have a book called recovering from Postnatal Depression which can be ordered on the website www.pnd.ie
- Started by Roxy on Jan 01, 2017
Hi There, I am looking for some advice/insight. My waters broke at week 36, 2 days after the death of my grandfather. I was in hospital for 2 days and on Xmas day I went in to labour, I was 36.6 when the baby was born on Stephens day. The labour was great but after I had a retained placenta. The midwifes where fantastic, they tried everything to avoid me having to go to theather but I lost a lot of bloodand started fainting etc and ended up under general anesthesia to get sorted. I thought I was going to die. 18 hours after I started to feel so so sad. I came home a day after my son was born Because I thought it would help my mood. Now I am home everything in my house reminds me of when I was pregnant and I can't stop crying. I can't stop feeling sad and every night at 7 it gets worse. I dony know is it my ordeal after labour or that I feel robbed of my last 4 weeks of pregnancy but these feelings are starting to worry me. I adore my son and he is so good. But I can't help but feel he shouldn't be here yet and i feel so guilty for giving him a birthday so close to xmas.
- Started by Anonymous on Aug 09, 2019
Hi everyone, my first time posting here. I’ve just had my 2nd child 5 weeks ago and feel like I’ve cried everyday since she’s born. I’m currently breastfeeding so can’t really get much of a break from the baby. My problem is I’m really resenting my husband at the moment. He works full time and plays sport few times a week which is making me feel like I’m constantly with the kids on my own. He’s always asking other people to mind the toddler to give me a break but I feel really guilty as I already feel like I’m not giving her enough attention since her sister arrived and I recently was re admitted to hospital with mastitis for 3 nights so my toddler screams everytime I leave her side because she thinks I’m going back into hospital. I also had to leave work early as I had spd and could not walk properly. This was another reason why I felt guilty because I couldn’t leave the house on my own with my toddler months before I was due to give birth. Are these signs of pnd? Or am I just tired and feeling guilty because my first born is so young too. I’m so confused but exhausted from all the crying I’m doing. Any feedback would be great, thanks.
- Started by Anonymous on Aug 08, 2019
I got pŕegnant with my youngest girl when I was doing my masters (and working full time). At 11 weeks I had a bleed and later found out i miscarried a twin. I had a really stressful pregnancy and had a lot going on during this time between work and studying. My youngest is now 13 months and I'm back at work. I find myself so irritable with my husband and my oldest girl and have days where I feel like crying for no reason or over anxious about stuff I can't control. I feel guilty that I'm not giving my best to my daughter's and I'm letting my husband down. I've been feeling like this on and off since my baby was born but it has definitely improved since going back to work. I'm not sure if I'm over analysing or if i should talk to someone. Any advice would be appreciated.