- Started by Amy on Jun 23, 2018
Kinda nervous to post this but here it goes, I know I will be met with support and understanding from you all. I think I might have postnatal depression but I don’t know.
Lately I’ve been feeling really strange. My Mom is currently battling cancer and it all kicked off really abruptly with her being healthy enough and then one day ended up in ICU on a ventilator after her bowel ruptured. They then found a tumour and she now has a ileostomy bag and has lost her hair and so much weight. It’s been so quick and painful for me to watch as she is my best friend and we have no answer about how long she will live. My dad also suffers with depression and has dystonia so I have this sense of guilt when I go home to my house and leave them there. I’m all day every day thinking about my mom and just waiting for more bad news. I’m really struggling with it.
I recently started back at work and have been offered a promotion since I returned which is great but I just feel like I’m on autopilot, I don’t relate to any of the girls I work with and feel like they don’t like me every much. I just feel like I can’t be myself around them and I come off cold. It’s like I’m overthinking every situation working along side them and I’ve lost all social capability, which is very strange for me.
I don’t feel suicidal at all, like my daughter and husband are my life, I love them so much and they make me so happy but I feel like I’m having an out of body experience all the time. I feel like I can’t be affectionate to my husband as I don’t feel attractive since having my baby and I know it hurts him that I’m like this.
I’m eating crap too, just not filling my body with the fuel I need but I just feel so bloody miserable and lost!
I know I should go to my GP and get help in some way but I honestly can’t afford the €65 visit and I know she will suggest counseling but I can’t afford it. I also don’t want to go on medication. I’m just wondering will this feeling lift, will of get worse? I’m just scared I’m losing who I am and becoming a shell of my former self. Help!
- Started by Kayla on Nov 14, 2016
Hi, does anyone know if there are any support groups in Mayo?
- Started by Lara on May 17, 2022
I feel just pretty much like I do not exist and that I do not have my identity anymore. My 3 month old is bit skinny and has head position issues and that makes me sad and I believe I am a bad mum. I also moved to Ireland recently and lost my job so I conoletely depend on my husband financially. I feel nothing more but a housewife and not so good mother and dependent wife. Some how it looks like I am not competent for anything and I am completely a fake person, empty and hollow.
- Started by C on Feb 08, 2019
Hi, this has to be the hardest thing i have done. I had my baby boy 21 days ago and now on medication. I have support but my brain won't let me relax. All i want to do is run away.
- Started by AnnMarie on Mar 21, 2016
I'm a Mum of two, a 16 year old and a 9 month old, each time I got PDN, each time the shame nearly crippled me. I dont know where this shame came from, and if it was simply a symptom of the PDN for me, but I know it stopped me seeking help for a long time in both cases. My experience with depression has led me to do a degree in Psychotherapy and I'm in third year presently and conducting a research project into PDN. I would be thrilled if any of you could fill this in. It is entirely anonymous and I just have a short piece to read first:
I would like to extend my sincerest gratitude in advance for taking the time to participate in this survey, providing you choose to do so. I have a personal interest in the suffering of Post Natal Depression and the link between shame and seeking treatment. As part of my research as a trainee psychotherapist, it is part of my third year criteria to conduct a research into an area of my choice.
My own personal experience of Post Natal Depression and feelings of shame associated with this, led me to choose this particular topic for my research project. In order to conduct my research I have decided to devise a questionnaire on monkey survey directed to mothers that have experienced Post Natal Depression and ask participants to lend their own personal experience to the body of my work.
These questions can potentially evoke feelings of sadness or ignite a reminder of a possibly very painful time in your life, to this end I would like to list out the relevant support services available for PDN or indeed depression of any kind. I would also like to lend my own services to counsel a participant who has been affected directly by the participation in my questionnaire. My personal contact number is 085 737 8582, please feel free to reach out to me for support. Please find below relevant support services:
With regard to confidentiality, please be aware that your identity and contribution to the study are anonymous, as is the nature of the â€˜Monkey Surveyâ€™ internet site. If for any reason you are unable to complete the survey, you have the right to withdraw. Please find the link below to complete the questionnaire.
Many thanks for your contribution to my study and I wish you the very best of luck with your own research projects.
- Started by Emah on Apr 15, 2016
Just wondering what support groups are available in Limerick area. Playgroups aren't ideal as by the time I get my toddler there she is tired and I'm just shadowing her from trying to go out door so doesn't give me chance to talk to other moms, feel so isolated!
- Started by Debbie on May 04, 2022
Due back to work in 4 months time and I am already worrying about it. Can anyone replace me, how am I going to be sure I pick the right person. I am all over the place, should I become a stay at home Mum?? If I didnt have the mortgage hanging over my head but really not a reality. Love love to hear from Mums that went through this..
- Started by Anonymous on Feb 01, 2022
Hi everyone I had my 2nd baby 12 weeks ago I’m constantly feeling scared to be alone don’t want to go anywere I don’t know what is wrong with me
- Started by Anonymous on Feb 02, 2022
I am a first time mum to a 17month baby boy.. I am 31 live at home with my mum and dad my boyfriend moved in before the pandemic and babys birth and we are still here.. I feel stressed here as I feel I am not doing things the way my mam would and sometimes it makes me so frustrated. She is good to us but feel she is getting distant sometimes.. I think I had some depression before my baby was born , it was manageable at that time I was able to go to the gym and have time and space for myself to recover from day to day stuff/work etc.. I was becoming more social isolating at that time also when I look back.. now since my baby was born the pandemic living with my parents still and first time living with my boyfriend I feel like I am so depressed I don't want too get up in the mornings I argue with my bf who did what etc I am paranoid my mam feels its too much us being at her house I am paranoid she is talking about us too other family members.. I am paranoid family think we are using then.. we are planning on moving out this year and have saved a house deposit. It was stressful as my bf worked with family and could not move jobs until recently so wasn't able to bring in much money I know my mam was trying to help with suggestions but was making my paranoid worse.. I cry most days now I'm always stressed iv had 3 new jobs since going bk to too work in Feb 21. I plan on going too my doctor to discuss this as it is affecting me my relationships, I have never received mental health help I don't know I'm how I'm feeling is pnd or just depression .. I'm I'm not feeling sad I have anxiety..
- Started by Audrey on Jan 19, 2022
I am a first time Mum to an 8 month boy. Being a Mum is something I've always wanted and my husband and I always wanted children.
I find I am struggling at the moment. My son has decided he doesn't like his car seat anymore and going anywhere in the car, unless necessary, causes untold stress. He will only nap in his buggy, when walking. Which is fine on the days that I feel like getting up and out but on wet days it can be difficult, especially when exhausted from the night before.
He usually sleeps well but at the moment he is waking at night and is very difficult to settle. It is upsetting for us all.
I feel extremely limited in where I can go and what I can do. Most days its just easier to stay at home and go for walks near the house. I find this is really getting me down.
I feel slightly rejected in that my son will settle for my husband but not for me.
I am wondering if anyone else feels like this or has any advice on any of the above.