Hi I am a first time mum to a beautiful baby boy who is 9 weeks old. I have been loving motherhood and everything is going great. The other night a voice popped into my heading saying " I wish my baby was dead". I love my baby more than anything and it makes me sick to the stomach that this has came into my head, I don't no why or how. I love him so much that I would never hurt him, I would be lost without him.Everytime i look at him, I feel so guilty for this thought. It kills me and I no it is my mind playing tricks but everything I try to push it out, it's like "but you thought that". The guilt is earing away at me. Is this PND? Has anyone experienced the same or am I the worst mother in the world? What do I do, I need to get this voice our of my head.