Reply to My PND & how hard I am finding it

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Posted By Katie on Dec 17, 2015

Hi everyone. My PND has been going on for almost 3 years now. Yes 3 years! I've read a few posts from other mothers and it seems like their PND lasts a couple of months. I'm starting to worry about the length of time I've been dealing with it. I can't even remember a day where I've felt happy all day long. I have two children and I didn't suffer with PND with my first child. Only with my second. I adore and love my two kids so much and do everything for them. I am just beside myself with guilt for feeling so low. When my son cries about anything my heart feels like it's going to explode from being so upset. Why does he have to cry so much and for such silly little things? He won't let my husband do anything for him, even change the tv channel. It's that bad. I give him proper time outs and it might work for a bit. I can't handle the screaming and crying. It gets me every time. Even writing this is making me well up. I just want to be happy and feel like I have a happy life. Logically I KNOW I have an amazing life and such an incredibly supportive husband and extended family. It has gotten to the stage where I dread spending time alone with my son. Does anyone else feel this way or is it really and truly just me? I feel so alone. I wish this would all just stop and I could be happy again. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I am on medication but I don't think it is helping.