Hi There, I am looking for some advice/insight. My waters broke at week 36, 2 days after the death of my grandfather. I was in hospital for 2 days and on Xmas day I went in to labour, I was 36.6 when the baby was born on Stephens day. The labour was great but after I had a retained placenta. The midwifes where fantastic, they tried everything to avoid me having to go to theather but I lost a lot of bloodand started fainting etc and ended up under general anesthesia to get sorted. I thought I was going to die. 18 hours after I started to feel so so sad. I came home a day after my son was born Because I thought it would help my mood. Now I am home everything in my house reminds me of when I was pregnant and I can't stop crying. I can't stop feeling sad and every night at 7 it gets worse. I dony know is it my ordeal after labour or that I feel robbed of my last 4 weeks of pregnancy but these feelings are starting to worry me. I adore my son and he is so good. But I can't help but feel he shouldn't be here yet and i feel so guilty for giving him a birthday so close to xmas.
Roxy thanks for making contact, I would suggest you go and talk to your GP it is so important to get a diagnosis. You have been through a lot and of course shock of loosing so much blood and having to get the retained placenta removed can all be factors. I know a lot of women including myself that would have loved to have gone early I was overdue on both my children. You are lucky to have a lovely healthy baby and I think that more important than the birth date. I know a friend of mine gives her son a birthday during the summer as he was born on Christmas day. It helps to keep a diary of your mood during the day which you can take to your GP. Try and rest as much as u can, if you have friends/family that you can call on dont be afraid to ask for help. Ring PND office if you want to talk 021 4922083, they are a great help and run Support meetings and coffee mornings