- Started by Anonymous on Jul 28, 2018
I look at old photos of me and it's like a different person. I'm beaming, bubbly and happy, in every single one. I can't remember the last time i felt like that. I've been struggling for 2 years now, and when I last posted here, one reply suggested I wasn't doing enough to help myself and need to get out more. But going anywhere is now a chore. I cry at the drop of the hat, and get really irritable with my kids. My eldest knew a completely different mammy, than the mammy my youngest has grown up with the last couple of years. I can feel myself putting on a front each time i'm around my parents and other family. I don't even know what to say to my doctor if i go, i dont want to sound like i'm looking for attention or pity. I have had thoughts of not so pleasant things once or twice, but know it would never come to that as i'd never leave my kids, but even having those thoughts scares me. My husband can be great, but i can tell he thinks i'm just miserable these days and he misses how i was too. I can't imagine needing medication for this, i keep thinking i can get a handle on it, but i just feel like i've lost who i am, lost my spark. In our recent holiday pics, my eyes look dead or something, i cant even explain it. I just needed a rant on a bad day x
- Started by Anonymous on Aug 07, 2018
Hi I am a new mum and have just been diagnosed with post natal depression. My anxiety is so bad I have completely lost my appetite and feel like a different person. I constantly have a pain and tightness in my chest that won’t go away. I would really appreciate any advice especially from anyone that has been through this. Is there a helpline?
- Started by Amy on Jun 23, 2018
Kinda nervous to post this but here it goes, I know I will be met with support and understanding from you all. I think I might have postnatal depression but I don’t know.
Lately I’ve been feeling really strange. My Mom is currently battling cancer and it all kicked off really abruptly with her being healthy enough and then one day ended up in ICU on a ventilator after her bowel ruptured. They then found a tumour and she now has a ileostomy bag and has lost her hair and so much weight. It’s been so quick and painful for me to watch as she is my best friend and we have no answer about how long she will live. My dad also suffers with depression and has dystonia so I have this sense of guilt when I go home to my house and leave them there. I’m all day every day thinking about my mom and just waiting for more bad news. I’m really struggling with it.
I recently started back at work and have been offered a promotion since I returned which is great but I just feel like I’m on autopilot, I don’t relate to any of the girls I work with and feel like they don’t like me every much. I just feel like I can’t be myself around them and I come off cold. It’s like I’m overthinking every situation working along side them and I’ve lost all social capability, which is very strange for me.
I don’t feel suicidal at all, like my daughter and husband are my life, I love them so much and they make me so happy but I feel like I’m having an out of body experience all the time. I feel like I can’t be affectionate to my husband as I don’t feel attractive since having my baby and I know it hurts him that I’m like this.
I’m eating crap too, just not filling my body with the fuel I need but I just feel so bloody miserable and lost!
I know I should go to my GP and get help in some way but I honestly can’t afford the €65 visit and I know she will suggest counseling but I can’t afford it. I also don’t want to go on medication. I’m just wondering will this feeling lift, will of get worse? I’m just scared I’m losing who I am and becoming a shell of my former self. Help!
- Started by Babymomma on Feb 04, 2018
Hello ladies, I'm just here to have a rant I suppose! So I had my baby 12 weeks ago and my other half has a 5 year old son with his ex. Well I know how silly this is gonna sound but he got her flowers after she had his first son and I was promised I would get beautiful flowers too cos it's something that I kinda became slightly obsessed about. Anyway I had a great labour and I got my amazing beautiful baby boy...but no flowers! He explained he had no money which I understand given his job barely pays the bills but my argument is that he had my card and I obviously wouldn't have even noticed 20 quid gone for them. It's made me feel so worthless and completely not good enough compared, even though I know it's me he wants but I just can't shift it. He doesn't get how he made me feel like he had money to go out for dinner with his friend the night I had the baby. I don't really know what I'm looking for here but I can't get over how this has made me feel and I haven't cried for nearly 3 weeks and now I'm crying over this. He can't fix it now so how do we get passed it? With Valentine's coming up I know he's going to get me flowers that will just cause an argument. I'd love to tell him what he can do but I know I'll never ever forgive him.
- Started by Michelle on Jul 06, 2018
Ok I don’t know where to start!!! I don’t know if I’m depressed or just failing as a mother and a wife!!!!
I have 3 beautiful boys, 4 year old, 18 month old and 17 day old. I love them to no end.
After my first I’ve suffered with doubly incontinent (which I manage myself) and 2 further sections!!!
Things that have been said to me by my mother in law especially stick in my head!!! With my first (who suffered awful colic hence the gap) I was told he when he was crying “he didn’t need me”!!! With my second, my inlaws arrived and my husband had to bring them home so I insisted he stayed the night and had a night out (st Stephens night) with his friends. I was questioned about my ability to “cope”!!! With my third she told me I wouldn’t “manage” if my husband and eldest son went to a match for a day when this baby was 12 days old!!!! Not to mind that was after housing and bedding and feeding all 10 of them for 2 days!!!
I can’t look at myself in the mirror!!! I have a section wound infection and it’s slightly open, it smells and I feel like everyone can smell it!!!!! I’m still so sore, obviously from infection and the weekend catching up on me. I then got asked by my mother in law what day we would b up at the weekend!!! I’m nit a machine, I have no replacement batteries!! Not able to sit in a car for over 2 hour drive! I’m still getting to know my son and my 18month old is teething bad so when they cry I want to comfort them and not b judged on my ability to be a mother.
My husband got annoyed with me today when all I want is a hug and be listened to!! I came out of PHN (who is lovely) and told my husband that she asked if I had a shower today cuz she could smell my wound and I did, I have at least 3 a day!! I just cried and told him and he said it’s an infection and it’ll clear up!! He’s been off with me all day cuz I said I didn’t want to talk cuz I was upsetting him and making him annoyed. Went to my parents house and he said I made an issue cuz I got teary eyed when I told my mother about my wound!!! It can’t just b the wound and the comments and the doubting myself. It has to b something else and I’m so lonely. I don’t want it to affect my kids like my childhood has affected me. My 4 year old gave me the biggest hug today when I was teary eyed. I just want to b able to talk to my husband but I guess I can’t.
I don’t know what to do and I wish I could snap out of it and not sit here crying.
- Started by Michelle on Jun 18, 2018
Hi everyone, I really don’t know what’s wrong with me if it’s pnd or something else, my son is nearly 9 months old and on and off I fell terrible , so sad unhappy I get upset so easily.. I was putting it down to pms symptoms because I generally feel worse around this time...lately though everyone is overwhelming me, I’m due back to work in 2 weeks and the thought of that along with leaving my son and being able to do it all has me in bits, I feel like I can’t cope with it all and that I can’t properly care for my son , Whenever my husband is around I just leave as I feel he’s better off with him and not me, what should I do?? Is this normal stress just before going back to work?
- Started by Anonymous on Jun 05, 2018
Hi there, can someone please tell me if what I'm feeling sounds like PND? Some days are great, really great but then other days I just want to curl up in bed and cry all day long. I have a 2 year old and a 5 month old and some days I really struggle, today being one of those days. I feel like I'm being very short with my 2 year old, very easily irritated and then I feel so guilty and cry. Thinking about going to the gp tomorrow to talk to her but I'm quite anxious about speaking to someone because I know I'm going to burst into tears while talking about it. Any advice would be very much appreciated
- Started by Anonymous on May 12, 2018
So my son is 16wks and I'm starting to struggle. My husband thinks it might be PND, I'm not convinced but I appreciate it might not be something that I could see. Does anyone know could I contact my public health nurse or does it have to be the GP? I'm not scheduled back to the nurse for another couple of months.
- Started by Anonymous on Jun 07, 2017
please can someone please reassure me that this will go away. so so tired fighting
- Started by Anonymous on Mar 20, 2018
I am 7 months post partum and in complete denial that I am having post partum depression. But tonight I acknowledge it and I seriously need help. Some days I am just angry that I feel like I am going to burst. It's been affecting my marriage and I feel like a bad mother to our oldest daughter because I am constantly snapping at her. Backstory - My partner is Irish and we had to rush moving to Ireland whilst I was pregnant because of my inconsiderate sister in law who wanted to get married soon so we had to rush everything. I was in major stress organising our big move from one country to another. I felt great the early stages of my pregnancy and I just felt miserable and had a hard time coping the last few months of my pregnancy upto now that I am seven months post partum. I need help. Is there a support group I can go in Cavan town? Thank you.