- Started by Anonymous on Nov 21, 2017
My baby lost 13% weightloss in 5 days, i was trying to exclusively breast feed, she was then hospitalised. I keep thinking it was my fault, i didnt wake her enough to feed( she was a slwepy baby) or was i to tired i slept through the cries. its all such a mess in my head now. I keep remembering certain times when perhaps i didnt do the right thing. Im not sure if im tainting the truth in my head or not. I just keep thinking about it in my head & cry & cry at the thought i could have starved her. At hospital she did gain some weight they fed her through my expressed breast milk, but then used Formula as i couldn't express enough for demand. She did put on weight and would feed at the bottle. Im angry at myself as well for not knowing enough when she wouldn't feed at home. Why didn't i know i could express and why didnt i have a good breast pump. Why didn't i give her formula when she wasnt feeding - although these are all things i know i could do now i didn't know at the time nor did i think she would take a bottle if she didn't take the breast. I now know that not to be true. When we got home i still couldnt get her to latch so we stuck with the formula. A few days later we were back in hospital and found out she had an extreamly serious virus. When she got the correct medication she completly changed however by then my milk was drying up and as much as i tried it never fully returned. If the virus meant she wasnt feeding im not sure. either way i cant help to keep going over and over in my head if the reason she lost so much weight is my fault
- Started by J2019 on Apr 05, 2019
Hi just wondering if anyone else has experience like mine. I’m 13 weeks postpartum living abroad so away from family and friends. Feeling really down, emotional and even angry all the time. I’m so anxious all the time and can’t sleep properly no matter how tired I am. I love my baby but sometimes I wonder if my baby and husband would be better off without me. Everyone says use your motherly instincts but being honest sometimes I really don’t know what to do. My husband’s family have never accepted me and really made it very clear since our baby was born (it’s our first) that they only came to see the baby and my husband and were really rude to me. I’ve never done anything bad to them but it hurts now more than ever not that they don’t like but that they’ll never accept me. They’ve done some nasty things to me regarding our wedding beforehand and I really thought all this would be a fresh start if that makes sense? I feel terrible cause this upsets me so much more since I gave birth and it effects my husband. I finally went to my gp when I realised my feelings were not clearing up after a few weeks, she told me it’s common and sometimes due to hormonal changes. What can I do to treat this? She referred me to a psychologist so I can have someone to confide in and it helps a bit. I just feel so shitty and guilty cause I know there are so many people who are in horrible situations with terrible problems. I’m due to go back to work but I just can’t cope with it, I have to go see the company dr and I’m so nervous that yet again another person will judge me and think I’m so ungrateful for what I have and force me to go back to work. I can barely cope with being a mother
- Started by Cathy on Mar 07, 2019
My baby is 3 months and I love her to bits but I cant believe how hard it is being a first time Mum. I am so anxious all the time feel I haven't slept for weeks. I am so lonely, thought minding a baby be easy, all my friends are working, no family close bye.She isnt a great feeder so seems to take for ever, think I worst Mum in world, please tell me it will get better?
- Started by Cindy Lund on Feb 04, 2016
Hi I was diagnosed with PND immediately after the birth of my first child 14 years ago. I felt like my world had been turned upside down. I became extremely anxious, couldn't sleep at all and felt completely overwhelmed. My doctor gave me medication which didn't help at all, then I was referred to the local psychiatric unit and was told more or less to 'pull myself together'. That was it. I did find some relief eventually when referred to a private psychiatrist who changed my meds but they worked for a while then stopped. Basically I soon realised that the birth had triggered a lot of issues for me which I had never dealt with. I have been working on them since - it's been hard but with the help of homeopathy and counselling together I am a much happier, healthier person now than I was before I had children. It is an ongoing journey and not easy. We all have to find our own way but support is essential and I really feel that more support groups are vital. I lived an hour from Cork at the time and in the state I was in just couldn't get to the meetings. A local meeting would have been brilliant. I am interested in setting up a group in south Galway where I now live and work as a healer and artist. I am no longer anxious or depressed but I still have some sleep issues. For all those who are struggling with this I empathise. It is awful. You feel guilty for not being over the moon about your beautiful child. But be kind to yourself. Parenting opens a real Pandora's box. It shows up all your doubts and fears, all your weaknesses as well as your strengths. But this is a positive thing because it gives you an insight into stuff you may need to deal with - we all have it but tend to ignore it until a crisis, trauma or stressful situation like becoming a parent brings it up. My sincere hope is that more support groups countrywide are set up and that awareness of all the options for healing (and there are many, apart from meds) is increased. If anyone needs to talk I would be very happy to share my experience. There is hope and you will get through this.
- Started by C on Feb 08, 2019
Hi, this has to be the hardest thing i have done. I had my baby boy 21 days ago and now on medication. I have support but my brain won't let me relax. All i want to do is run away.
- Started by Anonymous on Mar 13, 2019
I don’t even know where to begin or how to write this post...
My little boy is 14 weeks old and since right after he was born, I have been suffering with post natal anxiety & panic. I feel so lost and can’t understand why this is happened to me.
My anxiety makes my mind race and I have the most terrible intrusive thoughts. I just want it to stop and the more I will it to go away it won’t !
My GP is really good and says this is normal but yet any support forums I’m on no one seems to mention it...am I going mad...Is it just me...
- Started by Ali on Jan 10, 2019
Hi, I've been suffering with PND since my LG was born, in fact truth be told I think I've been suffering since the birth of my first LG. My daughter is now a year old and I've been out of work due to the PND and stress for 5 months. Although the company doctor agrees with my doctor that I am not ready to return, my employers insurance company says I am and has even provided a date for when I have to return. I haven't slept since I was told this and I'm not sure I can cope with it at the moment. Has anyone else experienced this?
- Started by Ang on Mar 18, 2015
I was wondering if anyone here took antidepressants during pregnancy? Or are there any online forums I can join to chat about it? I recovered from pnd last time (I actually had prenatal depression too but didn't get it treated). I'm 27 weeks along and have done everything I can to manage. My psychiatrist has reassured me that it is okay to take the antids but I feel if I could chat to someone who went through with taking the meds I'd feel better.
- Started by Ger on Nov 26, 2018
I have a 6 month old baby boy . The first three months were fine. When my baby was around 3 months old I started to feel very down . Dreading the day a head with my baby . I have a history of anxiety ocd and mild depression. I’m currently taking Prozac 60mg and Iv just started Prothiaden 25mg . I’m so scared I’ll get worse and wouldn’t be able to mind my baby . I have a partner but he works long hours . Iv no family close by .