I have a beautiful baby girl who is 5 months old, I had a difficult pregnancy & a labour/delivery. Throughout pregnancy my goal was to have everything I needed. No one prepared me for the full aches I carry everyday. I'm. I'm normally a strong person but I'm under so much pressure as a single parent & I feel like I'm suffocating. I did mention PND to my doctor but she said she would put me on medication. That would kill any pride I have left in myself. I really need help but I'm afraid of being labelled & I don't want pity. I don't know where to turn. I want to be happy & myself again but I don't know how. I feel like I have lost time with my beautiful daughter. Please help
The words that jump out are me are labelled and lack of pride. You have been through a lot, dose your GP think you have Postnatal Depression if so it is an illness and not something you should be ashamed of. Things have changed in relation to labeling if you had high blood pressure or cholesterol you would take a tablet. Have you any support from family or friends? It is important that you join a Mother and toddle group it is great to talk to other mums. Do you get any time out for yourself, we all need some space. Ring the Support Group in Cork if you need to talk, nice to talk to someone that understands. Suggest you talk to your GP again. It is not easy being a first time Mum especially if you are on your own. Try and take one day at a time and most of all try to be positive. Try keeping a short diary every day of how your feeling and what you have achieved, it helps.