At first I felt all the joys of mother hood and now 10 months in I feel like something is blocking my happiness & love. I keep telling myself it’s just the tiredness but I think I’m fooling myself? I’m afraid my daughter is going to be effected because some days I can hardly raise a smile. I’m afraid to seek help as I feel like a bad mother and a failure. I’m also afraid I’ll be ‘watched’ because I’ve admitted what’s going on. All I want is my baby to be brought up in a happy loving home.
Hi there, I know exactly how you feel. I recently seeked help and although talking to some one is not going to make it all go away instantly it certainly helps!! I felt like a weight was lifted when I spoke to my GP I didn't want to go to the appointment I didn't want to be judged and show that I wasn't coping. I asked my partner to come with me for support and it helped he made me accountable so I couldn't back out of talking to the doctor. The doctor was so understanding and gave me some great advice and support. One thing he said was that the kids will be fine and won't be affected. He said PND plays with your mind it causes you to focus on worse cases and the negative rather then seeing all the positives. Having the first conversation and seeking help is the hardest part I found that writing how I felt on paper before my visit and then my partner being with me helped. Maybe this will help you ask a loved one to go with you. You are doing a great job x