Hi All, my second baby is 3 weeks old. I can’t control my anger, but I only feel the anger towards my partner and sometimes my toddler but never ever anywhere near what I feel for my partner. He has no compassion for the fact that I just had a baby and was the same with my first little girl. I roar and shout in front of the kids and can’t stop myself, but then the guilt of acting like that in front of my kids absolutely kills me I just sob for hours afterwards. I wish I could stop but I can’t. I’m so afraid of my behavior having a negative impact on the kids, particularly my toddler. I’ve tried to talk to my partner about PND but he still doesn’t get it. My daughter was 7 days old when I first lost my temper and he just told me I was mad
Hi D, I am sorry to hear you are feeling like this at the moment. It won't always be like this and will pass, I know it is difficult to see that now. You did the right thing by reaching out and speaking about this as this is the first step to getting support and support is what is not only what you deserve right now but is important to move passed this. We here at PND will support you as best we can and we have some active tips for you also that will help you ease passed this. First of all, we suggest you visit your GP. GP's are very understanding of Post Partum symptoms and it is important to have a chat about it - I am not sure if you have any other symptoms besides Post Partum rage but the GP can assess if you require temporary medical help to ease some of your symptoms. That would be the first step. Also, it is probably a good idea to ask your partner to go to the GP with you so your partner can get a more indepth understand that PND symptoms are real and that this is Not your fault and you are struggling at the moment and need understanding and support. Please know we are directly available at 'PND Ireland' on Facebook and are contactable there by message for chat, enquiries and support. We are also available on 021 4922083 (but we are presently in office reduced hours due to Covid-19), however we also have a helpline available which is also listed on the home page of this website. On our home page, you will see that we arrange coffee mornings for mum's suffering with Post-Partum symptoms where the women meet for a coffee and a chat if you like to pop in. ( I am aware this may be difficult with a baby that is just 3 weeks old!) but just letting you know that these coffee mornings take place. We also arrange zoom gatherings that if you are interested to attend from home you can send us your number privately by ringing us and giving it to us or by sending it confidentially through facebook and we will add you to the list and send you the link on the day to attend. Please do check out our facebook page as you may find it helpful to know there are many women suffering with PND symptoms and you are Not alone, even if it feels like that at times. I understand that not being able to control your emotions is overwhelming and upsetting and your awareness of your current situation is a good sign because in that you can now seek support and understanding. Please know you are not alone in this and we are here for you as a support but it is a good idea to set up appointment with your GP as a first step. Do contact us again in any of the ways that may suit you and if you require support or guidance and we will get back to you a.s.a.p. and in the meantime do take care of you and consider to set up an appointment. Best regards, PND Ireland.